That title is something I sadly hear a lot. And it’s not because I just sit around, play video games, and waste my time all day. Truth is, I create way more than I publish. That probably sounds strange, but it’s real. It’s a trap that every creator or artist eventually runs into — thinking what you’ve made isn’t good enough to put your name on.

I’ve gone through that plenty of times. I like to think of GitHub less as a portfolio of my career and more as a time capsule of my work. Most of the repos I’ve made are unfinished, and many will never see completion, simply because I felt they weren’t worth it — or they looked more like the work of an amateur than anything else. And honestly, that’s okay. But not enough people understand that being a creator doesn’t mean making something “perfect.” It means making something you’re proud of.

I didn’t get that for a long time. I was too caught up in worrying about what people would think of my work instead of focusing on what I thought of it. If you can’t enjoy the things you put your time into, chances are you’re creating for the wrong reasons. I used to start projects with the mindset: “This might be cool, but people are going to think I’m a horrible creator. Putting this out will ruin my chances at a career.” That’s a toxic cycle.

Now, I approach things differently. I create what I would’ve wanted, not what I think someone else would want. Because, in the nicest way possible, I shouldn’t give a single fuck what other people think of my work. Since adopting that mindset, I’ve actually started finishing projects instead of getting stuck in self-doubt.

It hasn’t just made me a better developer — it’s made me a better person. And honestly, I think that counts for a lot more.

Hello internet people, welcome to my blog, this is where instead of making shit tweet sized comments, I write about whatever I want with more nerdy content.

Why not make a personal website, why a blog, it's not 1995.

Great question, and one I’m guessing someone is most likely going to ask. I do not at all think a personal website is all too great, that's why all that's here is a link to my GitHub, a simple projects page, and a link to my Twitter. Maybe some other stuff at another point—who knows. I feel like a personal website is too much, but a personal blog page with the bare minimum is just great. I want to update this page with a comment section (maybe using Atproto or ActivityPub or some similar protocol), reactions maybe, whatever I feel like.

I just kind of wanted a safe space on the web to document me and the stuff I do without any censoring from big tech. Not that I would say anything that bad, but having your own space to call yours is always great. I might put an about me up on here if I feel like it, but for now I think this is good! Please don't expect much yet still very much a work in progress!

Anyways cya, hope you have a good night, morning, or afternoon!

- Payton :3